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Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Katy Perry - Interview
On her body:
"I was shaped like a square at one time. I was! I'm generally around 130 pounds, which is totally fine for me. But when I was a kid, I was the same height and weighed more like 145. And I had enormous boobs that I didn't know what to do with, so I wore minimizers, which were not cute. Those thick-ass straps! I got made fun of for the over-the-shoulder boulder holder...and all I wanted was to look like Kate Moss. Little did I know...that these things would come in handy someday."
On her relationship with her husband, Russell Brand:
"Everything clicked really fast. We kind of instantly got past all the surfacey stuff. And ever since then, there hasn't been a dull moment."
On how their relationship works:
"We both needed balance, and we give that to each other. It wasn't about me taming him, which is what everyone always says - it was about timing."
On performing:
"I think some people will die on the stage, and I'm not so sure I want to do that. Like, I want to have kids! I'm totally fine with saying that. I think some people are scared because they're worried it's going to ruin their career, but I want to live a full life."
On her career:
"I feel like I'm at a point in my life right now where I could potentially stick around. I don't feel like a diva, but I think diva is a great and powerful word in the sense of what Beyonce makes it. And maybe I can't be Beyonce, but maybe I can be Cyndi Lauper. I mean be like her, not be her. That would just be weird."
I am not a huge fan of her music. There are some songs I like. I just think she is, by far, the most beautiful entertainer ever!
When Sh*t Happens
Sometimes in life we control when shit happens. Other times, it just….well….happens. I have spent most of my life playing the victim role when it happens to me unexpectedly, but have recently decided to make a choice of acceptance.
I feel I have grown a lot over the past month, and it has been one hell of a roller coaster for me. I have gone from complete agoraphobic, to leaving my house every day. When I leave, I panic like crazy, and still have that horrid urge to turn the car around, and go home. I manage though, and learn to be stronger every day.
The realization came to me the other day (in therapy) what has happened that has changed my life 180 degrees in the past year. I had a traumatic experience, without even realizing it happened. This is when we say “shit happens”. There is nothing I can do about changing this event. I have chosen my fate this time, and have to deal with the consequences.
Yes, there are things I should have done in hind sight to protect myself, but I never saw it coming. I was naive, and put all my faith in another person. So I have learned my lesson, and will no longer play the victim role. I accept what has happened and move forward making the best of what I have. I am learning to love my life from scratch, and will continue to grow and learn each day.
Having OCD sucks, but I am sick of being labeled a weirdo because I do things differently than others. So what if I fear germs and wash my hands excessively, or that I have to do things in a very specific way, and if I forget a step, have to start the routine all over again. This is who I am. I am not a victim of anything. From this point forward, I control my destiny and no one controls me. I have never felt free in my life until today. And all it took was acceptance of the fact that “shit happens”.
Mahalo!
I feel I have grown a lot over the past month, and it has been one hell of a roller coaster for me. I have gone from complete agoraphobic, to leaving my house every day. When I leave, I panic like crazy, and still have that horrid urge to turn the car around, and go home. I manage though, and learn to be stronger every day.
The realization came to me the other day (in therapy) what has happened that has changed my life 180 degrees in the past year. I had a traumatic experience, without even realizing it happened. This is when we say “shit happens”. There is nothing I can do about changing this event. I have chosen my fate this time, and have to deal with the consequences.
Yes, there are things I should have done in hind sight to protect myself, but I never saw it coming. I was naive, and put all my faith in another person. So I have learned my lesson, and will no longer play the victim role. I accept what has happened and move forward making the best of what I have. I am learning to love my life from scratch, and will continue to grow and learn each day.
Having OCD sucks, but I am sick of being labeled a weirdo because I do things differently than others. So what if I fear germs and wash my hands excessively, or that I have to do things in a very specific way, and if I forget a step, have to start the routine all over again. This is who I am. I am not a victim of anything. From this point forward, I control my destiny and no one controls me. I have never felt free in my life until today. And all it took was acceptance of the fact that “shit happens”.
Mahalo!
I am a Complete Mess
As it says on my “about me” page, I have nothing to hide. My life is an open book for the world to read. There are always exceptions to this rule, and as for now, I will no longer blog about my daughter in any detail. I will just say that there are no issues that have suddenly come in to play that is making me choose this. It is just the right thing for me to do. That being said, on to my day.
I am a complete mess today. I actually have had a rough few days, but had been hiding it well. Today was the boiling point, and I lost it. My DR changed my meds for my anxiety, since the Klonopin was starting to become “candy” and not really having the same calming effect it had in the beginning. So I took this new med, and with in 1 hour, I was a raging lunatic. I mean absolutely psychotic behavior. My assistant had to force me to the couch before I jumped through a window. It was such an odd experience. One I have never felt before, and hope to NEVER again.
So that is $100 worth of meds down the toilet, and back to the Klonopin for me.
I am home now, and feeling much better. I am starting to hate the outside world again, and am feeling that there is very little hope left if finding a “fix” for my OCD and anxiety. I am angry, sad and somewhat uncaring of my surroundings at this moment in time.
If this post seems like I am a nutball, it is because I am a nutball. I have nothing to hide, I never asked to be this way, nor do I EVER wish this illness/condition on anyone.
I hope today will be a better day, and a brighter future. I will continue to work through it and I will also continue to have hope that one day, I will feel “normal” again.
Mahalo.
I am a complete mess today. I actually have had a rough few days, but had been hiding it well. Today was the boiling point, and I lost it. My DR changed my meds for my anxiety, since the Klonopin was starting to become “candy” and not really having the same calming effect it had in the beginning. So I took this new med, and with in 1 hour, I was a raging lunatic. I mean absolutely psychotic behavior. My assistant had to force me to the couch before I jumped through a window. It was such an odd experience. One I have never felt before, and hope to NEVER again.
So that is $100 worth of meds down the toilet, and back to the Klonopin for me.
I am home now, and feeling much better. I am starting to hate the outside world again, and am feeling that there is very little hope left if finding a “fix” for my OCD and anxiety. I am angry, sad and somewhat uncaring of my surroundings at this moment in time.
If this post seems like I am a nutball, it is because I am a nutball. I have nothing to hide, I never asked to be this way, nor do I EVER wish this illness/condition on anyone.
I hope today will be a better day, and a brighter future. I will continue to work through it and I will also continue to have hope that one day, I will feel “normal” again.
Mahalo.
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